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We Filthy Bones and flesh.

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A Doomster

Dim… in the shadows of our sun,


We have been blinded by agony,

Our dazzling eyes empty of stars,

Our voices wordless with fear,

Our ears so envious of deafening,

Our withdrawing souls longing for death,

We drowned in a Moon of Amber.

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Behind My Walls Of Sleep

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And I saw the woman drunken with the blood of saints, and with the blood of the martyrs of Jesus…

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We were so much alike. He was my brother, and my best friend ,Now I’m not there this Island without forgivness……

 
 
 
 
 
I keep thinking that I see him in other people on the street. I see someone that has his walk, his hairstyle, or the stylish way that he would dress. I stare at them, and I’m sure it freaks the people out. I keep thinking, "I should call and tell him about that thing I just discovered." Then I realize that I can’t just call him. Sometimes I think, maybe it’s more simple than that. Maybe he’s with me, always, and I can just talk to him. He is, and always will be, a huge part of me. We were so much alike. He was my brother, and my best friend.

 
It’s only been a couple of weeks; I don’t know if it get’s worse, or better, or both from here. For the first few weeks, all I wanted to do was sleep, it was the only time I wasn’t in intense pain. All I could remember of him were those last few days that we shared together. He wasn’t himself, but I thougth that maybe it was that cocktail of prescription meds that he was on, making him spacy. I was so happy that he was with me; I never bothered about any Other friends because he would always come up  and we would go out ,hanging out having a great time. But, that week, he didn’t really Felt To be happy any more. I remember feeling frustrated that I thought the meds were damping his lively personality. I asked him if he was ok, but he would brush it off. I even broached the subject of suicide two nights before it happened by talking about a movie in which the character debates taking his life after a horrible accident. But, he didn’t really say much, he also didn’t seem comfortable. I wish that I had asked him if he had ever thought about it, but for some reason, I guess I didn’t want to think that he ever had thought of it. He certainly had never hinted about it in any ways that were identifiable signals. I still don’t know, and have to accept that I may never know, if he had thought about it before, or if it was a freak panic attack or something, or some combination of both.
 
 I’m still very numb much of the time. I think that might be a good thing perhaps, because I am functional when I need to be. I’ve been told that most people would not have answered a phone in a movie theater, but I still can’t help but wonder what if I had taken the call? How would things be different? I miss him so much in the physical, even though I feel like he’s still with me much of the time in subtle beautiful little ways. I’ll always love him, and know that he’s a part of me on this journey until it’s my time to cross the river. It’s up to me now to pick up where he left off, to honor him by helping others in any way I can.
 
 
 
Existence of feelings
Is like a simple sorrow
To feel the existence
We desire the fruit of the body
Millions of human souls
Deluded by a mysterious game
On rainy days are on their own
And shout out sad thoughts
In gardens of pain
We spend our lives
Every moment there
Is joy and madness
In the chaos of thoughts
We look over our dreams
These are the gardens of pain
Places of nonentity
Deer penetration
Intensive feelings
A bloody stump
Our worthless world
A mine of excrements
Experiments of life
In the gardens of pain
Sweet suffering
Welcome to my world
Sweet suffering
Is the ecstasy of feeling
My dream
Is not
My dream
Is not – realized
I see a splendid place
I can see the sweet time of existence
No – I am not there
This island without forgiveness
I can only see liars
I can see sick people
They said so much
To destroy my world
These are liars
                                                                       ………………..Cutting Reality Throat ,Nightly Gale
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………and The Hour is Coming one Day with any Doubt

What remains of the signs of the Day of Judgment ….!!!!!!!!!!!!
What has not been achieved labeling smaller individual!!!!!!!!!
 None ..
All small signs, Many of them occurred With increased emphasis ..
Of course nothing left .. If the Great signs already had not started !What remains of the signs of the Day of judgment..!!
 
 
Past

1. Splitting of the Moon.

2. Death of the Prophet Muhammad, may Allah bless him and grant him peace.

3. A form of death which will kill thousands of Muslims. (Understood to refer to the plague of Amwas during the caliphate of € ’�Umar ibn al-Khattab.)

4. A major fighting in Madinah (understood to refer to the battle of al-Harrah during the caliphate of Yazid, 63 AH).

5. The Muslim conquest of Jerusalem.

6. The Muslim conquest of Constantinople.

7. Two large groups of Muslims will fight in war.

8. A war between the Muslims and a reddish people with small eyes, wearing sandals made of hair (understood to refer tothe Mongol Tatar invasion of the Islamic lands.)

9. A peace agreement between the Muslims and non-Muslims from the yellow race (Chinese, Mongols, etc.)

10. Thirty impostors (dajjal) will appear, each thinking he is a prophet.

Present

11. Naked, destitute, barefoot shepherds will compete in building tall buildings.

12. The slave-woman will give birth to her master or mistress.

13. A trial (fitnah) which will enter every Arab household.

14. Knowledge will be taken away (by the death of people of knowledge), and ignorance will prevail.

15. Wine (intoxicants, alcohol) will be drunk in great quantities.

16. Illegal s3x will become widespread.

17. Earthquakes will increase.

18. Time will pass more quickly.

19. Tribulations (fitan) will prevail.

20. Bloodshed will increase.

21. A man will pass by the grave of another and wish he was in the latter€ ’�s place.

22. Trustworthiness will be lost, i.e. when authority is given to those who do not deserve it.

23. People will gather for prayer, but will be unable to find an imam to lead them.

Future

24. The number of men will decrease, whilst the number of women will increase, until for every man there are 50 women.

25. The Euphrates will reveal a treasure of gold, and many will die fighting over it, each one hoping to be the one who gains
the treasure.

26. The Romans (Europeans) will come to a place called A€ ’�maq or Wabiq, and an army of the best people will go forth from Madinah to face them.

27. The Muslim conquest of Rome.

28. The Mahdi (guided one) will appear, and be the Imam of the Muslims.

29. Jesus Christ will descend in Damascus, and pray behind the Mahdi.

30. Jesus will break the cross and kill the swine, i.e. destroy the false christianity.

31. The Antichrist (al-masih al-dajjal, the false christ) will appear, with all his tools of deception, and be an immense trial. He will be followed by 70,000 Jews from Isfahan (present-day Iran).

32. The appearance of Ya€ ’�juj and Ma€ ’�juj (Gog and Magog), and the associated tribulations.

33. The emergence of the Beast from the Earth, carrying the Staff of Moses and the Seal of Solomon, who will speak to the people, telling them they did not believe with certainty in the Divine Signs.

34. A major war between the Muslims (including Jews and Christians who truly believe in Jesus after his return) led by the Imam Mahdi, and the Jews plus other non-Muslims led by the Antichrist.

35. Jesus will kill the Antichrist at the gate of Ludd (Lod in present-day Israel, site of an airport and a major Israeli military base).

36. A time of great peace and serenity during and after the remaining lifetime of Jesus.

37. Wealth will come so abundant that it will become difficult to find someone to accept charity.

38. Arabia will become a land of gardens and rivers.

39. Society will then decay.

40. The buttocks of the women of the tribe of Daws will again sway in circumambulation (tawaf) around the idol Dhul-Khulsah.

41. A great fire in the Hijaz, seen by the inhabitants of Busra.

42. Three major armies will sink into the earth: one in the east, one in the west, one in Arabia.

43. An Abyssinian leader with thin shins will destroy the Ka€ ’�bah.

44. The huge cloud of smoke.

45. The sun will rise from the west (its place of setting).

46. A gentle wind which will take the souls of the believers.

47. There is no-one left on the earth saying, "Allah, Allah" or "There is no god except Allah."

48. Eventually the Day of Judgment is established upon the worst of the people, who copulate like donkeys in public.

49. The blowing in the Trumpet by the Angel Israfil, upon which everyone will faint except as Allah wills.

50. The second blowing in the Trumpet, upon which everyone will be resurrected.

 
 
 
 
 
 

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